My life in shambles

Once again I feel that my world is falling apart.. Why is it that every single time i decide to be open with people EVERY SINGLE TIME, they come back and stab me in my face Is there something really wrong with me? Am i that naive? Do i seem like a step over? Do i not deserve what u call happiness? This time round it came hard and smack in my face When i finally decided to be open with someone about me feeling for someone else That particular person used that information i was so stupid enough to have provided She went for that guy behind my back. Why God? WHY Why this now? Why is it that when i finally decided to open up my heart and feel for someone Even if it is just a little bit Do you have any idea what a huge step this is? After K, i thought that i will never love again. My heart was closed, it really was. Am i then wrong to open it up again? Sometimes i really feel that if i were to stop loving. Things will be less complicated right? If i were to stop trusting? Then there will be no hurt right? If i were to stop meeting new peopled Then i will be safe right? I really want to cry but i am so tired to cry.